Analysis

I can't write about San. I talk to her. I write messages to her. But nothing I can do will take away what happened and that is untenable. She's taken a leave of absence from work. She asked to stay with me for a while. I'm glad she asked. It feels like there's a future.

I'm with Corinne and her daughters for Christmas. I won't do another Christmas alone. Christmas 2012 was awful.  So I will always be around people during the holidays. I love my sister and I love her daughters, and that is good. Today, we went walking through the wetlands and spotted endangered bird species and watched out for gators, and I gradually earned the trust and confidence of the young doodlers. 

I'm using the break as a chance to finally write the analysis I've meant to do for months. I thought it would be easier after I let some time pass, but I think it will always be difficult, so I'm just writing the damned thing. I've begun with a literature review of the traditional role of intelligence operations and their modern evolution in an asymmetric battle-space. I'm picking apart the assumptions. I want to ensure that, when the editor gets back to me, I'll have a cohesive product to submit.