Bully

It's strange to consider what I write here. Here is a picture of my internal life. I show the processing but do not log the facts that stimulate the thoughts.

My life lately has been difficult. When I arrived here, I believed that the long work hours and the subtle acts of aggression by my bosses were manifestations of insecurity or concern for the work. But they have escalated their attacks over the past months, and my life at work is hellish. 

I've worked for bullies before so I understand the game. And I never internalize the attacks so this mitigates the harm. But I am exhausted from the long days and nights of overwork and the constant nasty surprises. Furthermore, I am fearful that my gentle pushing back against the illegal behaviors has created enemies and I believe they will harm me if they can. 

No wonder I dream of fighting demons.