Blocked

I've gotten to the ugly part of the story. It feels awful. I know I have to go through it to get to the other side. But I don't want to.
The longer I linger here, the less okay I am. I need to make a sprint to the other side. But it's like running through molasses. I hate to re-read my notes from that time, remember how hopeless and despairing I felt. Feel again the frustration and distress because Sjors did not take action when I so badly needed him to.

I spent the day writing a query letter instead. And working on the automation scheme for my patent. And cleaning my living room and rearranging the furniture. Then I walked to the store and bought bread and oranges.

I'm doing the best I can.