Sunshine

Day wasn't half bad. Sun was bright, and I had meetings. Good meetings. Things are happening again. 

It's taken a while for the book to edge into the periphery of my consciousness. But it is firmly there now. There was a time - months and months, actually - when it was all I thought about and focused on. 

It was like keeping an enormous art project in the front entrance hall of your house. You're confronted with it every time you walk in and you can't really work on anything else. Poor Marie was perpetually pinged by me: "have you read the section I sent you? What did you think? What does it mean to you in the context of everything else you know about the situation?"

Now, the project is done. Now, there is breathing space. It is all out on paper and I don't need to think about it anymore. There was sadness, of course. I wrote it for Sjors and I can't even send it to  him - and it doesn't mean he's coming back to me. But I'm glad its out on paper. 

Today, I met with Ozwald. Our original contract with his company was cancelled/delayed because of upsets internal to their operations. Nothing we could do about it. I thought it was all over. Now, if I can re-draft the statement of work, we might be on contract as early as mid-February. Definitely good news. I also met, this afternoon, with a company which agreed to subcontract with us if we can put this thing together with the Command. 

Then, I called and spoke with my programmer. He's working on realizing my invention, and that is humming along nicely (apart from some strange in-fighting between the group members). 

Eric's been texting me today, and he always makes me smile. 

As I walked away from this second (unexpectedly good) meeting, the sun was shining. It was a beautiful day. I felt like I was breathing again. What a long and crooked road this is. Tomorrow, the sun rises at 7:21 AM. I will put on my running clothes and take a long run into the city. More sunlight, please. I need more sunlight.