I'll look back on this time and wonder why I wasn't perpetually amazed and grateful. How often does life give a gift like this? People who love and care about me, time enough to explore the relationships, time to find the next path, and the chance to hit "pause" on something that has pained and troubled me for years.
Last Friday, J-dog and I took the boys hiking on the Pipeline trail up Millcreek canyon. I packed a thermos of hot chocolate, bags-full of chips and grapes and oranges. The boys are still too young to tolerate the long trudge, and Dean was out of gas long before the journey's end. But it was fun nonetheless. Loftin threw himself enthusiastically into every snowbank, and he and I staged an ambush for the slower members of our crew.
Today, I came home from the gym and showered.
Dean, wearing a mask, said, "Why did you make yourself clean?"
"Because I like to be clean," I said.
"I like to be STINKY," he shouted and launched himself onto me.
How the hell do you not love that?
I had a morning video-conference with a potential employer. Its comforting to discover that they're planning to integrate me onto their team. Its nice to think I'll have a real-person job soon. Its been years since I was paid to do work I cared about, and this is good and interesting. After months of income-free living, maybe I get to step into a different life.
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